I had a dream last night, which only means one thing, I drank last night, but that is not the important part of this entry. It was my dream.
As you might all know, I am in a "long term" relationship right now, which is a big step for someone with commitment issues as deep as mine. I think this dream shows just how deep my fears can be.
What I do remember is something like a summer house that I was staying at, and I was making out with a beautiful woman, who strangly reminded me of Greg Brown's girlfriend, Maren. We were blissfully happy and enjoyed many a make out sessions before she said something about prior commitments, which only ment to me, the fact that I was seeing someone else, Meg. I pleaded and begged for this temptress to remain mine, but to no avail, and I found myself in the dream rather upset and heartbroken.
No unlike somepeople who wish to be Gaytard of the Year, I don't spend all day and night analyzing my dreams, except that this one has a little foot planted into reality. This may be the first time I admit it, but I feel like I could do better. I don't plan to go attack the first temptress I see, and I know that the grass always appears to be greener, but am I a bad boyfriend if I still think it is, even if I don't go over there?
One thing I don't want to do is turn this into a large relationship discussion with Meg, but rather a discussion on men in general. I don't think any specifics would have merit here, but rather cloud the issue. Men are always looking for a more beautiful woman wether she exists or not. Does that make mankind evil, or is it just a facet of emotion that most men can control and hide?
Comments (3)
I am intruiged by this Gaytard that you speak of. Is he related to the Homotard of the distant future? Maybe he is nothing more than a pale imitation of the fantastic Homotard. Explain.
Posted by Sundering Seas | September 24, 2004 4:51 PM
Posted on September 24, 2004 16:51
I think pretty much no matter what, people are always thinking , or looking and thinking, "I wonder if I could do better..." Unless you are totally 100% happy with your relationship, but I don't know too many people like that...
-Alex
Posted by SuperGolden | September 26, 2004 10:00 AM
Posted on September 26, 2004 10:00
I heard on the radio awhile ago that a guy who was dating Halle Berry cheated on her. The dj said something like "show me a beautiful woman and I'll show you the louse cheating on her"
So, maybe it's not that you won't look, that you won't wonder if something out there is better, maybe it has to do with your character. Are you the louse that's going to cheat on a great girl or are you a.) the guy who decides she makes you happy and even if there's something better you don't care or b.) the guy who knows there's something better and is willing to break up with said great girl and move on to that something better. Just depends on who you want to be.
Posted by Eudora | September 29, 2004 9:09 AM
Posted on September 29, 2004 09:09