A friend of mine posted in his journal that he was moody. That got me to thinking a lot about my recent mood(s), which all seem to stem from music. A certain CD can make me feel angry or upset, but it never seems to reverse it's effects after replacing the CD with another. Nine Inch Nails, Radiohead, and others have the ability to make my emotions do a complete 180 and take over my week.
This week was a Radiohead week. I had just put it into my CD deck in the truck becuase I had exhausted the rest of my cds in the car and I had another 40 minute drive to my construction site. It seemed only natural to place in The Bends and let the drive fade away, but instead I skipped forward to Hail to the Thief for a change of pace. Track 9, "There There."
Suddenly I was no longer in my car driving to Piqua, OH; but instead back in Camden in concert, watching Radiohead bang on the timbales with rock star fervor. It was so loud it changed my heartbeat, just to keep up. That was the first concert I had gone to since Stabbing Westward back in the beginning of highschool.
There was something in that song that brought back more than the feeling of the concert, but instead the emotions, feeling wierd people all around, the feeling of a cheap blanket on wet grass, and suddenly all i could think of was the company. it was a time when i was intoxicated by proximity, i choked on the taste of the air; but of course that was something of the past, somethign that has no weight on how i feel today, how i feel about my friends.
or does it.
Why does it stay with me forever. one would think that the past can have an ability to disapear, but it won't. i just feel like my life is shredded, just by one CD, one song, one thought of a girl.
Some days my moods can take over everything. Today has been lost to Radiohead, and it won't be gone when I wake up in the morning, because I forgot to take the disc out of my car stereo
Comments (1)
damnit, you logged off before i could say empty your cd try. biznitch.
in the same way certain songs turn you one way, cant other songs turn you the other way? like if i play "don't worry be happy" for 2 straight hours, i start getting happy. or "raindrops keep falling on my head". maybe a little bit of lehigh fight!
I really think i am pregnant. i'm starting to show.
Posted by Pete | October 28, 2004 4:46 PM
Posted on October 28, 2004 16:46